Day 10: It Could Have Been

Call my name—no
just step into the room.
My breath catches and
I’m aware anew of how much
you are a part of the
breaths I take.

Even after these many years,
contemplating all we are
can move me to tears of joy
that you and I discovered
each other and unleashed
the power of ages through
embracing instead of denying love.

It could have been quite different
if just one of us had not been
brave enough to stand in the wash of
unswerving, consuming, abiding affinity.

© 2010 Shari Lynne Smothers

Day 10 prompt: Write a ‘love’ poem; details here from 2010 November PAD Chapbook Challenge

Love poems still represent a peculiar challenge for me. The effort to be sure is worth it. But, to have a decent outcome, I rarely hit it in one day, to say nothing of a few hours. So, to keep from losing the whole of my evening, I give it to you pretty much like it came to me — and I’m sorry.

WWP #27: Sustaining Whispers

WWP prompt #27: Write a Healing poem

In my Spirit I hear Your whispers.
They are the memories I cherish
the friends who stand by me
the magnificence in nature around me
and myriad daily random acts of grace.

The voices of my parents
guiding, teaching me
raising me through childhood joys
and times that threatened
to bow my back permanently.
The mother who taught me to read
and read everything I wrote.
The father who defended me and taught
me the psychology of diffusing bullies.

Your whispers I hear in the rustle of
countless flocking cedar waxwings;
the flitting of hummingbirds
to the honeysuckle tree;
the butterflies and bees that
pollinate the flowers in between;
when my four-year-old niece decides
to whisper an important message to me.

I hear Your whispers in my sad hours
letting me know You’ve not
left me alone there.
I know it when I can find
a smile from my soul
in the midst of my abject sorrow.
When I say “Thank you, God!”
and You say, “You’re welcome, Shari!”
in an audible tone.

I cannot misunderstand
what is evidenced throughout my life;
I find my joy alone
and in communion with the world
that is around and moves through me.
And in my times of strife, Your whispers
awaken these graces,
these memories that sustain me,
and whatever is my difficulty I trust
that it too will, in its time,
move on away from me.

© 2010 Shari Lynne Smothers

Day 9: Be Peaceful

I saw my father’s spirit
shortly after he passed away.

In my life I never saw
in his countenance
a man relaxed so fully.
He always seemed to be
on ‘go’ or ‘fast forward’.
Whenever he would get sick,
he still seemed hurried, urgently
working to recover.

This visit he sat with me
against my meditation tree.
Such peace did he exude
it infused me with calm,
pulling me outside of time, speech.
And I knew he was in a far better place.
No worries, hurries, or any unrest
showed in him. In fact
his message to me was
to take it easy, get some rest.

© 2010 Shari Lynne Smothers

Day 9 prompt: Two for Tuesday, write a ‘slow down’ or a ‘never slow down’ poem, or both; details here from 2010 November PAD Chapbook Challenge

Day 8: The Performance Agreement

Long before this month began,
say August—or September
before I’d committed fully,
I started piecing together
my plan for 2010 November PAD.

Closing out tasks still open,
building shells for jobs
to fill in after the month
got underway. Clearing my
social calendar and all
stray obligations under “other.”

The separation of duties is as follows:
I forge the space, as it entreats my skittish partner,
my Muse. She requires cajoling and a wide berth
to show up regularly to do her thing.

Our Performance Agreement, then, seals a tenuous collaboration:
I keep the way clear, noise to a minimum, as much as I can
and Muse creatively, airily dictates in calm and frantic whispers.
And that’s how I get to post at least one poem daily.

© 2010 Shari Lynne Smothers

Day 8 prompt: Write an agreement poem; details here from 2010 November PAD Chapbook Challenge

Day 6: Looking for the One Right Word

You know, the one that
compels others to know
you’re the
only candidate for the job;
perfect person to be the best friend;
right one to deliver the opening speech;
best choice to paint walls;
the right girl to be born into
      a family of three brothers.

Somehow I knew them once.
These days they only come
as they choose, through my daily
entreating, on paper, online.
I give them room
encouraging them to join me,
not knowing if they heard my call.

Only after countless lines of
rhythmic verses flowing
dissonant, stilted, rhyming
and not, I’ll read back and find that
some few right words found me
each one at it’s one right point.

© 2010 Shari Lynne Smothers

Day 6 prompt: Write a “Looking for (blank)” poem; details here from 2010 November PAD Chapbook Challenge

(Re) New

I spin all my ideas as freely as I get them
emptying myself of verses and rhythms.
Those missed are gone as happens, expectedly.

Then in my sleep, empty, I’m transported
to the poetical nebula where I traverse
the expanse of unconsciousness, where ideas
recognize me and travel with me.

From sleep, my crucible of rest I awake forged new.
Filled with fresh thoughts more than I can name.
In awake hours, in bursts, they present themselves freely,
oddly familiar threads for me to weave my new lyrics.

© 2010 Shari Lynne Smothers

Day 5 prompt: Write a “metamorphosis” poem; details here from 2010 November PAD Chapbook Challenge