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Without

Feeling warm and fuzzy
isn’t so often or free
as it once was.
My joys are frayed these days
and tinged with stinging,
stark, honesty that I
am missing the person
I would love to share moments with
that I
have a heart broken for all time.
People young and old
in my situation
tell me it’s never going
to leave me completely.
Thankfully though I know,
intellectually at least,
I will find a place
to be complete
around this hole
forever a part of me.

© 2016 by Shari Lynne Smothers

Poem #6 for National Poetry Month. My dad died in 2007. My mom died January 2016. With her passing, I am alone in this world, at least without the last person who truly watched over me. It is sobering and sad on so many fronts in my life, until sometimes I can actually stagger under the weight of that truth. And, no, it does not matter that I have three brothers. I entertain myself with the crazy thought that I wanted to keep her longer, like until my dad came back. Nuts, right? I know. But there you have it. I’d be concerned if I believed it were possible. I’m alright with entertaining myself with crazy, fanciful thoughts; maybe I’ll write a novel. Whatever it takes to continue…