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Resisting the Feeling that I’m Not Enough

I suffered an invisibility crisis. Being unappreciated was an associated feeling. It wasn’t from passing insecurities, but from the words. And I marveled again at how cutting and devastating they can be. I may have been out of practice because it’s been a while since anyone hurt my feelings. But just a brief sentence sent me reeling.


Partly Cloudy
Clouds

Overcast without a cloud
no external indication
save for the
sarcastic tones
of address
and heavy sighs
of discontent.

Always the sense
of having fallen short
of the mark
expected for me to reach.

I took time to regain my balance. Returning to my center was going to take some doing. I didn’t have time to just sit with it because there was so much going on. The first chance I got to think and to meditate and be, I was too upset to focus.

It’s always intrigues me how God put things and people and messages in our paths at just the right time. It’s because of Morning B.R.E.W. sessions that I can step outside of most things quickly. And even closer to the event, the day before, the church sermon was for me. Pastor Edwards’ message was to ask for mercy that fits my case. Figure out what I need according to me and tell it to God.

My soul cried out in anguish. And I sent up prayers of thanks because I knew that I didn’t have to stay in this way. Watching, praying, grateful that I just trusted that better was moments away.

At home, I checked my email and found the message I needed in my BREW series newsletter, the Monday Morning Inspiration.

Date : 2008-04-07

BREW MONDAY INSPIRATION

Dear God,
Help me to be
still enough
long enough
to know that there is a place within
on the other side of silence

where love lives.
Amen

©2008 by Kirk Byron Jones

My prayers were a guide for what I needed. I learned that my efforts were not appreciated or even seen. And I had to accept that but I needed to know that I am enough. My focus was then on what could make me whole again, make me want to continue to try. This prayer/poem was the perfect message for me, from God through Kirk Byron Jones.

Once again, I am granted what I asked for, peace of mind. In this and many instances besides, I attest to the power of prayer and meditation and Morning B.R.E.W. time.

Partly Cloudy is from my poetry collection called Pebbles in My Shoes, published by Author House in 2004. It’s where the feelings took me for a while.

Morning B.R.E.W.: A Divine Power Drink for Your Soul

2003 Written by Kirk Byron Jones
Author of seven books including
Rest in the Storm:
Self Care Strategies for Clergy and Other Caregivers

A Divine Power Drink for Your Soul by Kirk Byron Jones

It’s been a couple of years since I reviewed this book and I’m still just as excited about it today. It revealed to me a spirit-infusing practice that I continue to use as I prepare to take part in my days.

Dr. Jones introduces us to his practice for greeting the day. In his devotional time he calms his spirit by making still the concerns of the day. By emptying himself of lists and obligations, everything that threatens to distract him. He encourages us to do this important first step, respecting that it is sometimes uncomfortable to face new aspects of ourselves and quite necessary.

Attempt to persevere by riding through the place of initial dis-ease. Breakthrough growth often begins in the tension of the familiar rubbing up against the unfamiliar.

Dr. Jones recognizes the challenge of being your best self and the effort required to optimize your mental and emotional state. The grace that allows him to be his best is from being open to God. And an equally important part of this process is the respect that must be given to Self.

The B.R.E.W. self-embrace moment is a good time to listen to the dreams and desires bubbling up inside you. Thank God for writers like John Eldridge and Erwin Raphael McManus, who have rescued the sacred meaning and value of words and realities like desire and passion. Use B.R.E.W. self-embrace to nurture your God-given desires and passion.

B.R.E.W. is a book about self-awareness and appreciation. It helps us to release the power that is inherent in us as Christians, power that God graced us with before we knew who He was. This is power that we were meant to use to prepare us for the adventure that comes on the wings of each new day.

Pay attention and drink with great freedom and joy from those wells that inspire you most.

B.R.E.W. is the map for the devotional practice.

Be still
Receive God’s Love
Embrace Personhood
Welcome the Day

I use this devotional practice regularly to bring out my best self. My statement to the day is: This is the day that the Lord has made; I will rejoice and take part in it.

And for those situations that are especially straining, this is a great meditation on the fly. I am able to return to my center, restore my calmness, to again be focused.

My final words come from the beginning of the book. Dr. Jones offers this guiding request to set the tone for reading Morning B.R.E.W.:

When you think of Morning B.R.E.W., I don’t what you to think first of a book authored by Kirk Byron Jones. I want you to think of your own daily deepening, energizing, and transformative experience. In this sense—and I believe this with all my heart—B.R.E.W. is less my book; B.R.E.W. is more your experience.

Holy Play: The Joyful Adventure of Unleashing Your Divine Purpose

2007 Written by Kirk Byron Jones
Author of seven books including
Morning B.R.E.W.: A Divine Power Drink for Your Soul

The Joyful Adventure of Unleashing Your Divine Purpose by Kirk Byron Jones

This book presents a wonderfully fresh approach to the way we choose to live. We give over to God, big choices that He gave us free will and guides to handle. We are designed to be more responsible for what we do on earth in a way that takes nothing of power and glory from God. In fact, it is honoring God to exercise the freedom that He placed before us.

Purpose is not something we passively receive from God;
purpose is something we actively create with God.

Dr. Jones’ deft explanation of this responsible way of living is clear and provocative. Infusing and enlightening. And on the heels of Morning B.R.E.W. which focuses how we prepare ourselves to enter the day, Holy Play is the book that focuses on what we do in the world.

I have read this book and written to the author in the margins of the pages in my usual exchange of my ideas with those presented. I wanted to do a review as soon as I finished the last word, last year when I got the book.

There wasn’t time because I immediately began to put into practice, the conclusions that I’d drawn. In the inscription in my book from Dr. Jones he wrote “Keep playing your song.” It took me some time and some meditations to realize that my song was indeed playing in the background of my life.

I have been interested in many things in my life. And I sought the one thing that I was supposed to do for life. No matter the jobs that I had, three things always came to the forefront, usually under “other duties as assigned.” I had often thought that I would love to place these things in the forefront of my job and work at them for a living. And then I let it go as something perhaps not meant for me.

According to Dr. Jones, it’s acceptable, even natural to have many interests. In fact, we have the strength to achieve things not readily available.

The third layer or zone of your strength is the most potent and underused element. It is your capacity to create options, to develop opportunities that would not exist apart from your capacity to conceptualize and enact them. This is the power of carving a path where there is none, or as Isaiah hears God saying, “making a road in the wilderness and rivers in the desert” (Isaiah 43:19).

Dr. Jones’ book Holy Play provided the impetus I sought, the external permission in compliment with my self permission, to play my song. To increase the volume so I could hear it in the foreground. I began to allow my dreams to inform my choices and to silence my “monitor” that was always present with “Perhaps you shouldn’t.”

Today I live my dream on several fronts and I know that it’s because I chose to do it. And I don’t doubt that God had been preparing me all my life—all I had to do was choose. One of my favorite passages in the bible is that of God asking the lame man if he wanted to be healed. That has resonated with me ever since I learned it so many years ago.

It seemed that so many pieces came together for me with this book at this time in my life. What I got from it all is this: Even the obviously lame must choose to accept the blessings available to them. You have to ask. I asked, I said yes, I sought and it was given me. And I am grateful every day.

I choose to participate in my life, to create in joyful communion with God, the path I walk. Holy Play is an excellent book for those of us who are willing to see God as the author of our human freedom. It’s for those of us willing to participate in developing our opportunities.